Why don't i miss it?

day 245 of my sobriety

I thought it would be impossible to live without alcohol.

But I don't miss it yet.

Not even a little bit.

I'm still learning how just be in my body.

Not intellectualizing fear.

Not running from stress.

Not numbing social anxiety.

Just being in my body, feeling my full range of sensation - unconditionally.

I don't yet know why this sobriety journey chose me.

As if 3 mimosas at Sunday brunch or 2 margaritas at Saturday dinner before a movie was ever a problem for me.

But the question kept coming up...

Does alcohol really feel as good in my body as I believe it does?

No. It really didn't.

Now I think I see why I don't miss it…

Sinking into every innate sensation teaches me how to rest in the full spectrum of my mind and body's experiences, no matter how uncomfortable and overwhelming.

Now I feel Me, deeply.

chelli’s love letters are lifestyle design documentations of self love, self discipline, and self creation